Dear Carver,

Today was a tough day for us. We weren’t quite in sync with the breast feeding. You were frustrated that Everytime it was time to nurse you would choke because of the fast let down. 

People around me are telling me to just pump the milk out and feed you. That was never my intention. I don’t want to just pump and I won’t. Breastfeeding together is our bonding moment. I did it with Lincoln, and I’m going to do it with you. 

I know you’re frustrated and angry. I can tell from your cries. But I will learn your cues and we will conquer this together. Also, I’m here to stay. You have one mom. That’s me. You basically have no choice but to nurse from me.